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Some of you are probably curious about this very brutal title and that’s why I’m making an article about it. I honestly talk about my hatred for this month here and there, but it never gets told how it is. 

The month of April holds a very delicate meaning to my very deep broken heart and not most understand or know why I have these feelings. Well, I am writing this article on April 4, 2023, which marks the 12th birthday my mother has spent in Glorious Heaven. I barely remember the 4 birthdays I got to spend with her but I very much do remember these 12 birthdays I’ve spent without her. Every year it gets more strange and unwelcoming to have the event of looking up at the moon at 00:00 AM on April 4th to tell your mom happy birthday. Yes, this day should be a celebration of her Heavenly life in the Afterlife but it’s also a sad day for me to continue the years without her. I wonder what it would look like now? What would her voice sound like? How many more tattoos would she have gotten? 

Then, there’s the beautiful holiday that everyone thinks is about the bunny but it’s not. Sorry, the bunny isn’t real but Jesus was real. The Sunday that supposedly the bunny comes to your house, is actually the day Jesus was resurrected three days after his death by being crucified. This day also brings me terrible sadness because, on Easter morning, I woke up to find my mother lifeless on the floor next to the bed. That was the last time she was at home because she stayed in the hospital until the day before Mother’s Day on May 7, 2011, when she took her last breath. I hate the fact that I relive that moment every single day but it becomes more real when it’s Easter. 

So, this is why I hate the month of April and the holiday in it. I keep getting told to get over the Easter thing but I don’t think I ever will. It lives in me and I have accepted that it’s a part of who I am. So if you’re telling me to get over it, NO! You get over telling me to get over something I won’t. Anyways, thank you for listening! 

Happy dumb bunny Day but mostly Happy Jesus Day!